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I Love you Jenny!! 

You make me one of the HAPPIEST people alive!! 

*MUAH* 

still cursed?

And we continue. 

There are times I feel like giving up with this whole weight loss thing. 

You know what sucks even more tho?! -- giving it all you have, getting sick, and losing that energy that kept you going. 

I know this is just a bump in the road, but this bump is pretty lengthy if you ask me? 

*Small steps* lead to *Larger steps* -- which lead to results. 

I'm someone who put their entire worth when fully dedicated. 

I'm definitely an ALL IN, or nothing type of guy, who when he sets his mind to something he can do pretty much anything! 

And i've lost that.

Life has been GREAT besides the whole losing weight thing though. 

&& it seems to be that way every single time. 

I forget to take care of my body, and do other things. I need to find that balance. 

Life will never be easy. 

You'll have to work for what you obtain. Sometimes it may take longer than you anticipate...

Other times it may come easy. 

Nothing has ever come easy for me. I've always had to take that (extra step) to get better or attain something. 

Even with music... 

People might think, I've never worked on it. But as a kid, i was always driven by constructive criticism. 

As much as I did not want to hear it, especially as a child, I took that as motivation to get better. 

I worked and worked on it. 

Sometimes i wanted to give up, because i felt so "unaccomplished". 

It took time for me to be able to play the piano and sing at the same time. 

If you heard me before, and now...you would've never thought i could put out a video. 

I still have a LONG way to go, but it's a process, and sometimes i forget that. 

Being determined is one thing, but staying determined is the deal breaker. 

I need to find that drive. That motivation that drove me before. 

Being sick is a GREAT excuse to have. But it can't ALWAYS be the excuse that keeps me from becoming a better and healthier person. 

This week is going to be a challenge. 

The challenge is: a week long CLEANSE. 

To take the time to eat only fruits, veggies, and nuts. 

Being in the most natural state. 

Taking the time to be as close to the earth as I can. 

Take the time EVERY morning to meditate on something in life. 

Take the time to breath in and be thankful for everything the LORD has given us. 

I want to clear my mind, body, and soul. 

This is yet another chapter I want to open. 

The initial "LET's DO THIS" is over with. 

This is the 2nd phase in the process. Getting back to ground. 

and CONTINUING something i've started, and to keep it going. 

I'm thankful for the health I already have. 

But I need to treat my body, like the temple that God has meant it to be. 

So this week. 

May I grow not only mentally, physically, but most importantly spiritually as well. 

I am no longer cursed, but motivated to become a person I will be proud of and that other people are proud of. 

To health. 

BST.TLF. 

Russy 

the curse.

*sigh* 

Right when I was getting on a GREAT routine w/ my diet and exercise, I GET SICK. 

Maybe I was pushing myself too hard. 

Especially w/ School and everything else picking up...I guess I needed to relax. 

But 2 weeks of not going to the gym!? 

That HAS to be a curse!! 

The one thing that has kept me good, was staying on a somewhat "clean" diet. 

I know I still have a ways to go, but it feels good when my pants start to feel loose. 

Let's get it right this week. 

I'm off to the gym. 

To health. 

BST.TLF. 

Russy 

-- ready to get back to it!!! 

This was the lowest point.

This was definitely one of the lowest points in my life. 

@ over 230 pounds (the heaviest i've ever weighed in) 

The pants I am wearing in this picture is a snug and tight fitting size 44's. 

NEVER again will I wear any size in the 40's. 

These pictures I put up, are constant reminders to NEVER go back. 

&& to also show how far I have gotten on this journey. 

Picture: 

Circa July 2009. 

Lynsey's wedding. 

worst week ever.

Well...

Another week is about to conclude, and I must say...I'm disappointed. 

I mean, what can you do. 

It's not that I wasn't motivated to go to the gym, but being sick just kills it. 

I'm usually not one to give excuses, but this has to be one of the more frustrating ones. 

The eagerness to go workout was there. The drive didn't go away... 

BUT, when your body tells you "NO! STOP!", you have to listen. 

Weird thing was, I've lost more weight this week than I was when i was pushing hard at the gym. 

I'm still on a great diet plan. Eating cleanly. and staying away from a lot of the more unhealthy foods. 

BUT I feel very sluggish, partly because I'm sick...but the other half is because I haven't done anything to really make me sweat. 

My head is pounding while I write this...and i chose to write because these are the types of things you have to keep track of. 

These are the types of things life throws at you. 

The types of things your body goes through when trying to get into shape. 

Not everyone is going to be running at full force EVERY SINGLE DAY. 

There are gonna be days, weeks, and some...even months where you just need to take a breather. 

And this was my week, where I needed to take care of my body and just rest. 

I've been pushing hard w/ school. 

&& I guess the bright side to this is, even w/ the hectic schedule of school...I've managed to get my diet in. 

That's one of the most important things to take into account when you can't go to the gym. 

I'm excited to put the two together. 

- diet 

- gym 

The results can only go up from there!! 

I know the holidays are coming, but It'll be a true test as to where my mind is really at. 

So, even though i'm battling the sickness... 

I gotta keep my head straight and look at the LONG TERM picture...and not just shoot for the short term. 

This is a journey. A marathon (not a sprint). 

It's gonna be one step at a time. 

Let's do work. 

To Health. 

BST.TLF. 

Russy 

will THIS be the day?!?

Where i FINALLY feel well enough to hit the gym!? 

I'm starting to feel lethargic again. 

It's been 4 FULL days (almost 5 if i don't go today), that I haven't ran or did any type of activity! 

I'm itching to just feel good. I'm not going to risk getting even more sick and being out of commission from school, working out, and everything else. 

I need to take it slow. relax. and if i feel up to it...i'm going tonight! 

Crossing my fingers!! 

An update to follow. 

To health. 

BST.TLF

Russy

i HATE being sick.

I know it's been awhile since i've posted a blog, and this has turned out to be a daily thing. 

BUT I've just been so busy w/ school and also having family over from the philippines and london. 

This drastic weather change hasn't been the most friendly thing on my body. 

I've been sick for the past week, and i know if i hit the gym as hard as I've been hitting it, I'm just going to get worse. 

I've done pretty good w/ my diet and the numbers are started to get lower and lower. 

I won't say how much i have lost (yet!). but let's just say i'm pretty happy w/ the results :) 

So, until i get better...

To health. 

BST.TLF 

Russy 

Feelin' under the weather.

It sucks getting sick. 

I pretty much exhausted my body this week. 

Sacrificing hours of sleep, to go to the gym. 

I had class EVERYDAY this week from 8am-5pm. 

So, the schedule was: 

-Wake up at around 6:30am 

-Shower till 6:45

-Eat breakfast till 7am. 

-Get to school around 7:15-7:20ish to get parking. 

-Class at 8...lunch at 12...back from 1-5pm. 

-Get home at 5:30, rest up (maybe a quick nap) 

-Homework till about 8 or 9. 

-GYM from 9:30pm till about 12:30pm (or from 10pm-1am) 

-Back at home around 1am

-Shower and stretch out. 

-Review notes till 2am. 

-Sleep from 230am-6:30am

-DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN. 

and after one week...I pretty much exhausted my body. 

I guess you could say I'm not use to it, and this is probably why i refrained from doing this in the past, when i was in school. 

BUT i will NOT use school as an excuse anymore. 

It shows you, that i've really changed my mental approach to this. 

I'm determined as ever. 

And if it takes being sick...I'm going to push through it, until i'm use to this regimen. 

*Sigh* 

I will do whatever it takes to not be the unhealthy guy that I was. 

So to all you people who think you can't do something. 

PUT your mind to it, SHUT UP, and just do it! 

Believe in YOURSELF, because it starts there. 

There are going to be people who doubt you, this is your time to PROVE them wrong! 

I say this to all, in every aspect of your life, not just weight loss. 

But applying this principle, that you can DO ANYTHING and that NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE...

Will Carry you through some of life's toughest challenges. 

Do Work. 

To health. 

BST.TLF 

Russy 

P.s. 

I know many of you who read this are like...

BUT being healthy means getting your sleep...

WELL, for now, I guess I have to sacrifice some hours to get those hours at the gym. 

The time will come when i will have the chance to get more sleep. 

Till then, It's all about trying to juggle the hours. 

Don't worry...I care about that too ;) 

The weekend curse: Part 2

So last weekend...

I was semi-good (Not really). One of the reasons why I haven't loss/kept off a good number on the scale, are the weekends!! 

So here it is again. 

The challenge continues. 

I have family coming from London, the Philippines, and SF...So they're will probably be TONS of food to go around this weekend. 

It's all about having the will-power to choose what to eat! 

IMPOSSIBLE is NOTHING. 

To health. 

BST.TLF

Russy

2nd step to Losing weight.

Not having anymore excuses. 

Learning how to SUCK it up...and JUST DO IT. (like nike says) 

to health. 

BST.TLF 

Russy 

Initial Step to Losing Weight.

Learning when to say "NO THANK YOU". 

Off to the gym. 

To health. 

BST.TLF. 

Russy