Day 17 (30 in 45)

Somedays we are granted somethings that we don't deserve. 

No matter how far you've drifted from God, He always has a way to bring you back. 

I don't have a life changing story or what not, but the little things in life add up. 

I just feel blessed. 

Thankful for the second chances. 

The uncertainty because certain today (yesterday) and I'm truly grateful. 

// 

As far as the "HEALTH" and "FITNESS" aspect of my life. 

I've been eating clean, but haven't had the time or energy to go to the gym. 

First session will be tomorrow (thursday) 

I had the chance to go out w/ my boy ken and just relax at It's a grind. 

Met up w/ people I haven't seen in a minute, but it was just nice to relax. 

Everyone went out to eat afterwards, but we decided to just hit the road. 

We didn't want to be tempted, and we were exhausted from our day. 

// 

I feel great. and I'm not sure if I'm going to go full on RAW FOODS 

But I'm definitely going to eat a lot more of it. 

I just feel better. more energetic. 

But cutting out bread is definitely going to be hard. 

Anyway. 

The weigh in on sunday should be interesting. Let's hope for under 200. 

If not...201 or 202 will do for now :) 

To health. 

BST.TLF 

Russy

Day 16 (30 in 45)

Another WEIRD day. 

The sun is shining and I'm being positive about an uncertain situation. 

I need to refocus and remember the good things in life. 

I have a family who loves me for who I am, no matter what. 

I have a girlfriend who is perfect for me. 

I have health. 

I have my music. 

Most importantly, I have a GOD who never gives up on me. 

The only being that will never fail me or let me down. 

The only reason why we live here on earth today. 

He has a plan, and whatever that plan and road may be...we just have to follow. 

Taking things in our stride, will only cause us to fail. 

& that has been my mistake this year. 

Too many times have I tried to do things on my own. (and many times I fall short) 

Maybe this is an eye opener. Something that I truly need to grow and remember why I am here on earth. 

I live to Love & I love to live. 

I am on a cleanse this week. The diet has gone out the window. 

I need this cleanse in order to clear my mind and help me get ready for what's to come. 

The life we live. is a life that is not certain. 

The life we live has no guarantees and isn't set in stone. 

We can plan all we want and map out our future, but things will change. Plans will fail. 

Our trust must fall on God and Him alone. 

Failing is something that is hard to swallow. But something we all will face. 

This week is all about. What I can do for God and not what I can do for myself or what He can do for me. 

Live to inspire. 

To health & life. 

BST.TLF 

Russy 

Day 15 (30 in 45)

Today was very interesting. 

I failed a course in nursing by 1.6% -- I'm waiting around for my professor to give me the heads up on what's next. 

Being that I have my Associate degree. This will maybe allow me to just study for NCLEX and start working. 

Or it can be a huge set back and make it impossible for me to find a job. 

All I can do is hope and pray for the best. Trust the Lord will have the best road for me to take. 

I'm confident that he will bring me out of this. I've gone through so much in school, so many bumps. 

This is just another one I need to get through and face. 

Another situation in life that I will learn and grow from. Taking 16 units was hard for me this quarter. 

A lot of busy work. Something I should've thought about, but didn't. I really thought I could do it. 

It's about picking up from here and doing it. 

// 

As far as the diet. 

I ate a granola bar for breakfast. 

Turkey sandwich for lunch. 

Nuts and a vegetable/fruit homemade smoothie for dinner. 

Not my 30 in 45 diet, but semi healthy. 

I wasn't really in the mood to do much of anything once I found out. 

I'm just ready to hit the gym so I can take out my frustration on the treadmill and bike. 

Well. this week is going to be huge for my weight loss. 

Let's do it. 

To health. (& life)  

BST.TLF

Russy 

Day 14 (30 in 45)

Not a good day. 

Ate semi good, semi horrible. which equals too bad. 

Been studying for my final for tomorrow. 

I need to refocus after tomorrow and hit the gym. 

No excuses. I should of budgeted my time better so I could hit the gym. 

My fault. and only my doing. 

Let's get back on track. 

This is going to be a HUGE week. 

To health. 

BST.TLF 

Russy 

** No weigh in today ** 

Day 12 & 13 (30 in 45)

Haven't been too good the past few days. 

Been studying & just spending time w/ my lovely girlfriend :) 

But it'll be different this week. 

Found an old blog: 

what DRIVES you? 
Life can be extremely challenging...
we stumble, we fall, we cry...
we even have those moments where we "GIVE UP" 
But we are driven for a reason...
it's the same reason that brings us through to the next day... 
//
I've always been someone who takes pride in PUSHING through. 
I've pushed through some of the most MENTALLY draining obstacles life can throw at you. 
But "SOMETHING" always gets me through the hump. 
//
STRUGGLING is imperatively as important as SUCCEEDING. 
these test our ability to make better decisions in life... 
building experiences that make us wiser individuals... 
which we can subsequently pass on to the next generation... 
//
UTILIZE your motivations in a positive direction... 
always carry a "never quit" mentality... 
because this type of thinking will bring you tremendous success. 
//
if you've EVER lacked the motivation or the lack of confidence in yourself... 
always say this to yourself: 
THERE IS ALWAYS SOMEONE OUT THERE WORKING HARDER THAN YOU ARE!! 
like Diddy says; 
"There is always someone trying to take your spot". 

whatever it is you're STRUGGLING with...
remember these things: 
1. trust GOD (because phil 4:13 says: we can do all things through him who strengthens us" 
2. always PUSH YOURSELF...utilize the simple math equation +1...whatever you can do...always try to do 1 more...then 1 more...
3. Keep people around you to keep you ACCOUNTABLE!
4. NEVER doubt yourself, always believe that you have the ability. 

WHATEVER it is that made me write this blog, i have no idea. 
complacency is something we as a society have grown accustom to. 
it's truly sad to see that people only do the work "half-heartedly"... 
Strive for Greatness in all you do. 
STRENGTH and HONOR. 
*SouL*

Day 11 (30 in 45)

woke up at 6am today to get ready for school. 

last day teaching @ colton high school. thanks kids for letting me be a part of your lives. 

I shared many of my "fat" past and the abuse (verbal & physical) that i took as a child. 

It was so cold this morning. Just throwing that out there :/ 

Got back home. took a little nap. studied a little bit. had a final from 1-3pm. 

&& now I'm currently studying for my final on monday. 

I'm going to skip the gym today and just study the night away and go in the AM tomorrow. 

I've been so deprived of sleep. I think my body needs time to just CHILL. 

Been good on my diet. EXCEPT I'm SICK OF IT. 

So, I changed it up today. All I wanted was something refreshing. So i decided to make a smoothie .

Ingredients: 

- 4 oranges 

- 3 bananas 

- 2 apples 

- a 2 cups of BROCCOLI

**of course I didn't drink the whole thing, but I intend too** :P 

It surprisingly tasted very delicious. I'm getting accustom to these flavors (bland and natural) 

But, even though this went a little off the diet path...I maintained health. 

I'm truly thankful for my health, and just feel lucky for that. 

I love my life & I want to live it to the fullest! :) 

Well...this may be my day of rest (maybe not relaxation) but truly the rest part. 

Signing off for the evening. 

To health. 

BST.TLF 

Russy 

Day 10 (30 in 45)

Today was a very busy day. 

Another day FREE from rain...why did I ever want to move to seattle. :X 

I'm a California kid, and will always be a California kid. 

Sunshine is the only thing I know. 

It was pretty chilly today though. 

Got my H1N1 vaccine today. Hope I don't get sick! 

Neway. 

Planning and doing this diet is getting more and more routine. BUT it's not getting any easier. 

The workouts are limited to about an hour and  a half, but my calorie intake is minimal, so i'm still getting that deficit. 

Haven't cheated this week, but I've felt the urges to cheat many times. 

Well. Its time to study now. 

Thursday approaches and I'm ready for another day :D 

Let's have another great week of weight loss!!! 

Goal is to get below 200 this week, but that'd be 6lbs this week, so we'll see. 

Well. G'nite! 

To health. 

BST.TLF 

Russy