Vlogging

Never thought I'd really do it and make myself so vulnerable to the public. But if I want to really stay on track and stay motivated, I need to put this pressure on myself so people around me can keep me focused and determined. 

I was reaching a phase where I started to not care as much. I didn't have the motivation to go to the gym or work out at home, and even started eating bad again. I gained some of the hard earned weight I took off and I am ashamed and disappointed in myself for gaining what I did. 

Celebration for things such as getting hired, birthdays, and valentines day are important. But carrying it over and making them habits aren't. I'm ready to remain focused and be kept accountable for each and everyone of my goals.

I will vlog as much as I can, good or bad. The struggles are a part of the journey, and I'm not going to hide those struggles, because that's what makes it so real for people and will inspire people. This is it...phase 2 begins. let's do this together. 

To health.
BST.TLF 

Russy

New youtube channel.

To document/vlog everuthing!

http://www.youtube.com/user/50poundsin1year

Goal for the next 3 months.

Have my scrubs falling off of me...I don't mind spending money on scrubs, as long as they're a smaller size. Starting off w/ a Large, let's get that medium action going on.

So fitting.

I wake up this morning to my daily bible verse. My favorite. 

Philippians 4:13 - "I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me". 

Tomorrow I'm going to embark on my "real" nursing journey. I've been itching to get back on the floor at the same time, anxious and nervous. It seams so surreal that I have a job as an RN and after all my doubts in school, it's finally coming into fruition. There are times I don't do good under pressure, and that's what scares me the most. But this verse always reminds me that w/ Jesus we can do anything. He stands by our side and makes it a whole lot easier for us, because nothing in this world is done w/out the help of our Lord and savior. He gets us through so many challenges and it's only fitting to have this jump start my day. 

As scared and anxious as I am, I am assured that God is standing there right by me. Watching my every step and decision that I make as a nurse, and life in general. I can't wait till that blessed day when Jesus comes back to take us home, but I am always ready to make a difference in this world we live in today that Jesus wants us to be. He gave us certain talents so we can utilize them to the best of our abilities. He gives us strength to get up each morning to face the new challenges that present themselves. I'm ready, I'm focused and I'm ready to walk w/ the Lord through this journey. 

February, you ain't nice.

This month has definitely had it's challenges concerning my weight loss. I've gained more than a few pounds back, and it doesn't feel good. I can't let myself go again, and I won't. Me getting this job and having all these birthday celebrations around me, doesn't mean I can just go eating everything in sight and not have the motivation to work out anymore. It should give me more reason to stay on track. 

March is going to be tough. The past couple of months have been easy because I had all the time in the world to wake up whenever I wanted, prepare food whenever I wanted, stay up however long I wanted to, but starting this Friday, it's all going to change. I'm going to be working full time, and going to the gym needs to have priority in my life. I've set major weight loss goals for 2011, and it started off going great, now I just need to refocus and get back on track.

I always tell myself, you can do anything you put your mind to. It isn't different this time. Next week will be another cleansing week for me, and it's well fitting to start the month of March on the right path. I'm so vulnerable to over eat and be lazy at home. But I need to change that and change it soon because I want this to be a year that I'll look back and say I DID IT. 

My goals still remain the same. Monday I will start my video blogging, which will hopefully keep me on track. I'll try to blog every day or every other day, to keep me on track. I'll document what I've been eating, how I feel, what types of workouts I'm going to be doing. etc... 

FEB 23, 2011 is going to be my 2nd turning point. I started in december at 228lbs...currently I'm at 201.8lbs. My goal is to be at 150-155lbs by Dec 31st, 2011. I stand by that and I know I can do this. This is mine to lose, and my journey to share w/ everyone. 

Let's go (again).

Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful.
~ Herman Cain

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