still cursed?

And we continue. 

There are times I feel like giving up with this whole weight loss thing. 

You know what sucks even more tho?! -- giving it all you have, getting sick, and losing that energy that kept you going. 

I know this is just a bump in the road, but this bump is pretty lengthy if you ask me? 

*Small steps* lead to *Larger steps* -- which lead to results. 

I'm someone who put their entire worth when fully dedicated. 

I'm definitely an ALL IN, or nothing type of guy, who when he sets his mind to something he can do pretty much anything! 

And i've lost that.

Life has been GREAT besides the whole losing weight thing though. 

&& it seems to be that way every single time. 

I forget to take care of my body, and do other things. I need to find that balance. 

Life will never be easy. 

You'll have to work for what you obtain. Sometimes it may take longer than you anticipate...

Other times it may come easy. 

Nothing has ever come easy for me. I've always had to take that (extra step) to get better or attain something. 

Even with music... 

People might think, I've never worked on it. But as a kid, i was always driven by constructive criticism. 

As much as I did not want to hear it, especially as a child, I took that as motivation to get better. 

I worked and worked on it. 

Sometimes i wanted to give up, because i felt so "unaccomplished". 

It took time for me to be able to play the piano and sing at the same time. 

If you heard me before, and now...you would've never thought i could put out a video. 

I still have a LONG way to go, but it's a process, and sometimes i forget that. 

Being determined is one thing, but staying determined is the deal breaker. 

I need to find that drive. That motivation that drove me before. 

Being sick is a GREAT excuse to have. But it can't ALWAYS be the excuse that keeps me from becoming a better and healthier person. 

This week is going to be a challenge. 

The challenge is: a week long CLEANSE. 

To take the time to eat only fruits, veggies, and nuts. 

Being in the most natural state. 

Taking the time to be as close to the earth as I can. 

Take the time EVERY morning to meditate on something in life. 

Take the time to breath in and be thankful for everything the LORD has given us. 

I want to clear my mind, body, and soul. 

This is yet another chapter I want to open. 

The initial "LET's DO THIS" is over with. 

This is the 2nd phase in the process. Getting back to ground. 

and CONTINUING something i've started, and to keep it going. 

I'm thankful for the health I already have. 

But I need to treat my body, like the temple that God has meant it to be. 

So this week. 

May I grow not only mentally, physically, but most importantly spiritually as well. 

I am no longer cursed, but motivated to become a person I will be proud of and that other people are proud of. 

To health. 

BST.TLF. 

Russy