2 a days && P90x

a couple years back...i remember being able to go to the gym twice a day. 

those were the days when i would lift for 2 hours and still do an hour or 2 of cardio. 

These days. I'll do 30 minutes of lifting and an hour and a half of cardio and i'm done. 

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I think i've finally got my stamina back up, so it's time to up it. 

Tony Horton's products have always been these insane workouts that guarantee you results in X amount of days. 

Being that I have a home gym && a 24 hour pass, I'm gonna really focus on circuit training. I'm still going to go to the gym for my 2-3 hour night workout. 

But I'm also going to start P90X. 

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I'm pretty excited about the results. 

Hopefully this is the start to something real special. 

BST.TLF. 

Russy. 

Do work.

Dear self, 

PLEASE let this week be productive. 

that's all i ask. Last week, went to the gym 5 times && ate right for  4 3/4 days. haha. 

All I ask is that you make this week: 7 days of eating good && 6 days at the gym. 

That's it. 

&&&& PLEASE make my salads taste good so I don't crave "good" food. :) 

Strength.Honor. 

TLF.BST. 

Russy 

2nd Weigh in: 

210. 

goal: 

below 200 by the start of school!! 

It takes giving up something to get something.

Dear World, 

I know many don't know I even have a blogspot, but I'm just gonna vent. 

This blog has little to do about losing weight, but just LIFE. 

I'm a musician at heart, someone who loves music as a whole, everything from listening to it, to playing it myself, to the art of a CD cover, to music videos...whatever it is, I've been passionate about it someway or another. 

During the past couple years in nursing school, I've given it up to get something else, and that something (which happens to mean the world to me) is my nursing degree. I've grown to love the medical field. Grown to love the thought of helping others get better, not only physically, but mentally and spiritually. Nursing is a tough job, and a job that not everyone can do. At first, i couldn't imagine myself doing it for years, but now, i can't imagine myself not doing it at all. 

Over the course of those years in school, I've kept putting my passion and first love (music) aside. Countless times i'd turn down show opportunities because of my determination to succeed in school. Sometimes i would be so tempted to just slip a little bit in school, just to get my name out there and to do what i love to do...perform. 

Its hard for me to admit this right at this very second, but I've lost almost all my passion for the music. It's hard to believe that a person who held music so close to their heart, at the moment wishes it never consumed me. I question my talent right now if I've been fooling myself trying to get myself and my songs noticed. 

Sigh. only time will tell whether this love for music will ever be the same. 

So for now, I'm letting go of the name "RuSouL". Letting go of something familiar, to obtain something I've been working on for ever. 

I hope one day i'll be laughing at this blog and say, why did I ever want to quit music. BUT for right now, this is how I feel. 

Music, you've been a huge part of my life, But I'm letting you go. 

Not forever. But until I can look at you the same and say I LOVE YOU once again. 

So, thank you music for always being there. I know you'll always be there. 

Goodbye. 

It really takes giving up something to get something. 

&& hopefully that something else, is as good as you've treated me. 

much love & hope. 

Russy

It takes time.

Note to self: 

Please be patient. 

It took time getting there before. 

Shoot, it even took time getting fat. 

So, it's going to take time getting back to a feasible weight. 

Nothing comes easy. 

Let's do work. 

 

2 a days &&& eat clean. 

Strength and Honor. 

BST.TLF 150 

*SouL*

Failed.

Staying consistent is harder than I thought. 

I had a midterm last week, and already I've put off the gym for nearly a week. 

Well, I've been once this past week. 

It's already wednesday and I have yet to hit the gym. 

Kinda scared to hop on the scale, so i'll wait a few days. Get back on track w/ my diet and start doing two a days. 

As determined as I am, when you have priorities such as school, it gets hard. I just need to stay focused and budget my time a little better and stop wasting my time at home. 

I set up the gym at home again, cleaned up the room...So just in case i'm too lazy to go out and drive to the gym, I have the convenience of just stepping into another room and doing some cardio and what not. 

I'm actually about to go their right now, and hopefully hit up 24 tonight as well. 

WELL...it's focus time. 

No more excuses. Just Results. 

BST.TLF.150 

*SouL* 

First Post.

What's good world!?! 

I guess this is the first of many. 

Never thought I'd ever blog on a site like this, but then again, I vowed before never to join, Myspace, Facebook, Youtube, and Twitter...and now i'm using all four!! haha. 

So here's the story why I'm blogging: 

Back in 2006 I was in the BEST shape of my life. I was about 6-7% body fat and on my way to feeling great! 

Then nursing school started. Being consumed by books, accompanied with unhealthy snack choices and the comfort of fatty foods really got to me. 

There's nothing better to comfort a stressful situation than a good slice of pizza or (a box) or a cheeseburger or 4. 

That's how my life was. I went from going to the gym twice a day for 2-3 hours a time...to not going to the gym for 5 or 6 months at a time. 

I neglected to see my health deteriorating. I noticed my fatigue level, and how I never wanted to do anything, but sleep. I found myself not wanting to take pictures because of the way I looked, i even hid behind people to make sure my stomach wasn't showing. 

I went from wearing a size 28 to a size 42. 

When I got fit back then, I promised myself i would NEVER get to where I was as a little kid. That was one of my biggest fears in life, and it came to reality. 

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This blog is all about changing that.

I'm motivated as ever!! 

A month ago I weighed in at 230, a number that still scares me. 

3 weeks into eating better and getting a gym membership again...I'm down to 211. 

That's still a number that scares me, but anything is better than 230!! 

So, as I embark on this journey...I'm determined to get back to where I was!! 

I know it's not going to happen over night, because it took me nearly 2 1/2 years to get down to where I was. 

BUT I'm so motivated right now, I don't think anybody can stop me but myself!! 

So this blog is to HEALTH. 

I'll keep updated this blog for those of you who want to keep track and cheer me on. and also those days when I really feel like giving up. 

This will be a constant reminder that there is no such thing as GIVING UP!! 

I will do WHATEVER it takes. 

till then. 

much love&laughter

Russy 

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Starting weight as of July 20, 2009: 

230lbs 

Current weight as of August 12, 2009: 

211

BST.TLF 

(blood.sweat&tears -- train.like.a.freak) 

Now 2009 :/

Before 2006